tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post3893696492621828593..comments2023-06-12T07:08:02.377-04:00Comments on Lydia Eileen: AngerJenhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02550777583491004988noreply@blogger.comBlogger6125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-89443921411624163262010-11-06T00:03:01.752-04:002010-11-06T00:03:01.752-04:00Oh Jen, I am sorry I have been disconnected from y...Oh Jen, I am sorry I have been disconnected from you. I have been dealing with my own life and the grief that is still a part of it 2 and a half years later. Occassionally I sort of check out and let myself miss my girls. And then I shake myself out of it and go forward with life again. Baby steps. Even after years have gone by, still baby steps. <br /><br />I understand your anger. And your prayer "help me believe" is perfect. I remember that exact feeling of betrayal. I gave my girls to Him and he actually took them. It almost feels like God cheated at a game I followed all the rules of. I know that is not true, but sometimes the disappointment is just too much for me. Trusting again is hard after a reality like ours. We didn't get the miracle we hoped for and the let down is more than we can stand most days. <br /><br />I still miss my girls. I still watch my boys playing (well, Colt just sort of wiggles around on the floor) and imagine my girls there too. I can't take a family picture without imagining them in it. The holidays are stiring up in me a new grief that is catching me off guard: I am lonely without my girls. The whole in my heart seems to be widening. <br /><br />But good days to exist. The worst days get fewer and farther between. I am praying for you Jen as you walk through these difficult days. I love you.Rachel Tenpenny Crawfordhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10162546754271724177noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-62150468161158094702010-10-03T21:45:28.921-04:002010-10-03T21:45:28.921-04:00Hi Jen. I'm friends with Becca Groop and saw ...Hi Jen. I'm friends with Becca Groop and saw this link on her facebook. Thank you so much for sharing. What an incredible little girl. A young mom at our church was recently taken from us and it's so hard to understand God's ways sometimes. I gain such perspective from reading your posts. (If you ever want to check out my blog it's at www.keymomentsmom.wordpress.com) May God bless you with continued revelations of his presence and hope.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-19543631005723266402010-10-03T07:47:35.227-04:002010-10-03T07:47:35.227-04:00Lately I have been brought to the following versus...Lately I have been brought to the following versus. It started with being taught a new concept of praying (check out prayingincolor.com) and then just keeps showing up in one reading or another. It is the concept of the verse that is most important . . . God knows are words and what is going on without us saying anything. He knows the groaning of our heart. He is with us no matter what. You need to start fresh with God before you will be able to move on to any other place in your life. Isn't it great to know He lets us have do overs. You continue to be in my prayers Jen.<br /><br />Romans 8:26-27<br />The Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express. And He who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's willKGozhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14125152415126090606noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-91812485501285581072010-10-02T16:23:50.162-04:002010-10-02T16:23:50.162-04:00Jen-
It is ok to be angry. IT IS OK TO BE ANGRY! ...Jen-<br />It is ok to be angry. IT IS OK TO BE ANGRY! It's normal to be angry. Regardless of from whence your hurt and grief have come, anger follows. Even Jesus as perfect as he was, got angry, showing us that the emotion itself isn't wrong; it's what we do with it that can become destructive. <br /><br />Processing as you are is good. What I had done with my own anger at my own hurts was wrong; my own anger over my perceptions of injustices delivered at the hand of God was unhealthy. I didn't process my anger;I let it take a hold of me, digging roots of bitterness so deep and pervasive, stealing fruits of the Spirit all over my life, stunting growth everywhere. It literally took (several) rather painful wrestling matches with God for me to even see what I had allowed to happen in my life. What God had permitted, had purposed to make for His glory and good, I had perverted and allowed to take root for bitterness in my life and strife in my family. <br />And you're right, the desire for a do-over, a clean start, is a good first step. Consider it. It doesn't necessarily mean move, but consider a fresh place with our Jesus. Consider Him again as your friend, your confidant, the one who wrenches hurt from your heart and refuses to give it back; though he is the same Jesus, the same God, who saw Lydia in the secret place, approach him with new eyes and find your fresh start; a place to rest and heal. <br />With so much love for you and Micah,<br />RebeccaBeccahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/13389186331020087896noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-12097382235714536232010-09-30T23:10:03.965-04:002010-09-30T23:10:03.965-04:00Jen, I will never understand Gods plan when it com...Jen, I will never understand Gods plan when it comes to losing a child. Even if I get to ask Him, and He gives me a reason, I am sure it will not make sense to me no matter what. You have every right in this world to be angry...dont ever forget that. I will say your prayer along with you..Help me believe, because honestly I dont think I will ever be able to understand. I KNOW His plan is the way, sometimes its just so hard and frustrating to stick to it. I can not begin to know how you feel, but I know you need to feel the way you feel, and work through it in your own time. Love you Jen, always in my heartAmyhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05180268721447875010noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-938426184973005795.post-89303485969035799392010-09-30T17:21:17.923-04:002010-09-30T17:21:17.923-04:00Jen--All I have to say is "wow" --you ma...Jen--All I have to say is "wow" --you managed to put into words much of what I've felt for the last 5-6 years, yet for some reason wasn't able to. The strange thing is this: I've never recognized it as anger. But, you're right--it is anger. I don't even know what I thought it was. Discontentment maybe? <br /><br />Anyway--thank you for your honesty and I'm really glad that you did post something. Losing a child simply violates the natural order of things. Something no one should have to go through, yet here we are. I don't think I will ever understand it.Christinahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12798282017391489597noreply@blogger.com